Tonight i wanna cry

literally i wanna kill myself.

x tahan hidup camni.

pernah tak rasa, u have so much to say but couldnt tell anyone about it. all you can do is just sit and watch while ur heart tears apart.

so much consequences need to be think of. u tell, u die. u didnt tell, worse - u suffer.

atleast when u die, u dont have to feel the pain, but suffering is the worst way of dying ever.

but i choose to suffer, considering the fact that it will remind me of who i am and what we've gone through, and how much will the heart of the people who loves me breaks.

it is something that worth i fight for.

you know, i'm all alone too, just like you.



ps: i'm ok now. your voice and words cured me enough to live the rest of the day.